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Relapse My relapse began when I started feeling depressed and it was displayed in my actions towards everyone. In the past, when I began to relapse I always started to sabotage my relationships with others. In this case, I tried to handle a situation which was out of my control. I had a lot of wishful thinking going on and was under the impression that my ex-wife and I were getting back together. I placed a lot of expectations on her and my kids, thinking that I was coming back home and everything was going to be the way it was in the past. Instead, I discovered she had another man living with her and it tore me apart. I decided to medicate my feelings by picking up drink. I felt so bad that I had to turn to that mess instead of turning to my God and my friends. I just really didn't want to face anyone. Now, what I do is take my time with everything and talk about how I feel about personal things in my life. As long as I keep God first and remember that I'm my own worst enemy and keep talking to my support group, I'll be just fine.
-- Sean Saxby |
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