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Recovery My addiction keeps telling me that nothing is happening fast enough, that my recovery doesn't have to take years... But then I remember exactly all I've been through in my life and the pain makes me resort to unwanted tears... It's not just about me picking up a drink or drug, it's also about my thinking and the way I behave... It is definitely going to take a lot more time to get my life back together, rather than submit and just be misery's slave... First and foremost, I have to take a real honest look into myself and keep up front what I really need to do... Which is to make meetings and follow the 12 and 12 daily and make sure my people, places and things stay new... Secondly, I must stay honest with myself, other people and my sponsor and ask for help when I'm feeling angry, irritated or sad... Honesty, open-mindedness and willingness are the keys to my success to get back some of the self-respect and dignity that I once had... Thirdly, I must recognize my actions and the things that I do, my attitude, my thoughts and my character defects, so I can avoid slipping back into my old destructive and selfish self and raise my being towards the spiritual level that's next... Last, but not least, I must remember that I'll never be close to perfect, I can only strive to evolve my heart, body and mind. If I am Ready, Willing & Able, with patience and God as my higher power, total growth, happiness and a life of sobriety will all come in time... Thanks to God and NA, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.                                                             -- Tracy Washington